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I tried to explain the concept to them
but they just wouldn't understand me
I was so frustrated that I stopped going
to class I was in college and was afraid
I wouldn't do well I went through a lot
of jobs but couldn't keep them I never
really knew why I got so confused when I
was hearing things other people didn't
hear I needed help to figure out what
was happening I never really moved out
of my parents house but I wasn't around
much eventually I was living outside
I didn't mind too much except I got
arrested for trespassing my family stuck
by me though these are the voices of
people with schizophrenia a serious
mental health condition that often
develops in early adulthood through the
mid 30s while schizophrenia can be a
lifelong severe mental illness the
symptoms can be managed with treatment
oh I know one of these voices is mine
when I started college I tried to make
friends but I struggled to trust them it
felt like people were treating me
differently it's not that people didn't
like me we just didn't connect when I
talk to people sometimes I would quickly
switch from one topic to a different
topic or I would talk about things that
didn't make sense to others sometimes I
laughed out loud when there wasn't
anything to laugh at or talk to myself a
lot it became hard to communicate and be
around other people I started spending
more time alone and became suspicious of
other people
one of my professors suggested I see
someone in the Counseling Center I was
scared
so I did I remember the counselor there
asked if I had ever heard or seen
something that wasn't there I didn't
want to sound crazy but I had been
seeing images of people that weren't
really there out of the corners of my
eyes making it hard to study I heard
people talking to but I wasn't always
sure where they were coming from I never
felt safe like people were watching me I
knew it sounded strange
seeing the counselor helped by meeting
with her I learned that it was okay to
talk about my symptoms she referred me
to a psychiatrist in my community after
meeting regularly with my psychiatrist I
learned that I had been experiencing the
symptoms of schizophrenia people with
schizophrenia perceive the world around
them differently for most people our
perspectives change and that impacts
every part of life it can be really
frightening and lonely I decided to take
some time away from school and focus on
my mental health my family was scared
because of what they had heard about
schizophrenia we had a lot to learn
about what was happening to me after I
received my diagnosis my psychiatrist
talk to me about different medications
and the potential side-effects
she then prescribed a medication that
started to help my symptoms I could
think more clearly and I didn't hear
those voices as often I felt most scared
about people following me we're trying
to influence the way I behaved I paid
more attention to taking care of my body
and health and I was even able to talk
to a few of my old friends again talking
with my doctor and going to group
therapy helped me to learn to cope with
the many challenges of living with
schizophrenia having people in group get
to know me accept me and understand my
situation made an impact on my ongoing
recovery journey living with
schizophrenia isn't easy starting
treatment was scary but I was lucky to
get help before my symptoms got worse
with the right medication therapy and
support from my family and my group by
symptoms became manageable I was even
able to start taking a class at a
community college I know that my
diagnosis is a part of my life but it
doesn't have to take it over
I live with schizophrenia but
schizophrenia is not my life
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